Mm~ it's been very long time since i last updated my blog. lately, I've been having this problem with my boyfriend, it's not actually a real problem. it's just that we have some kind of error in communication.. some sort of disturbance. we have been acting very "cold" on each other. seems like no way to restore our "mood". why is this happening to us?
I have no time to think of all this, but it's bugging me all the time. voicing out will make this worse (i think). there are much for me to say to him, express everything to him. but I'm afraid that after i tell him everything about how i felt all this time will change his heart for me. that is something i don't wanna deal with.
my love for him is very strong. no matter what i will always be patience. let's just hope that all my dream that I've been keeping to myself will come true one day. i just want him to be happy with me, that I'm not some kind of big burden to him. no matter what happened, i will always fight for our love. but decision is all in his hand. if he decided to move on without me, then it's okay with me, as long as i know that he's happy with his own decisions.
guess my confusion will never end. i will always be in confusion state for the rest of my life. life's a mystery, no doubt that most people get lost in life. but those with strong heart will always be on top. ready to face for anything that's coming.
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