Memories of My Beloved Angel

I do not want to forget about you,

But you kept pushing me away,

Makes me forget about you little by little

All those things that we used to do.

We can only pretend and laugh, 

Time felt so fast while is was passing.

There are times you made me cry, 

There are also times you made them dry.

You were always there to give me your cuddly hug.

To complete my heart is your only concern.

Never dare to break it apart.

But memories are just memories,

It is just like a story filled with laughter and sorry.

Sooner or later I may forget all those things,

Things that we used to do.

But I know deep down inside me,

I'll never forget about you.

YOU ARE ONE PIECE OF MEMORY THAT I WILL TREASURE FOREVER

Get It Right

What is it about me that you're not happy?
Seems like everything I did is not right to you.
Never once that you see goodness in me,
You only captured my weaknesses and turned it against me.

Your words are just whisper to my ears.
Promises made never reached to me
Treated me like I'm zero,
While all this time, you are the zero.

It is hard when I alone have to carry the burden on my shoulder.
No consideration, full of selfishness, that I can guaranteed.
The more steps we walked, the greater the possibility we will never meet.
I am lost in the jungle, all by myself.

Deep down, my clouds are turning into grey.
No more sunshine, total darkness.
Flowers stop singing, butterflies stop flying.
River stops flowing, fishes stop swimming.

You only see from outside without even care what's on the inside.
I cry when I laugh,
I shout when I talk,
My heart and soul stops.

I am who I am and this is what I am made off.
Billions of diamond hidden inside me.
You see only with your eyes when you should have seen me with all your heart.
Blame only yourself when you lost the diamond in front of you.

I did what I have to do,
With all my heart and sincereness.
I just don't understand one thing,
When can I GET IT RIGHT?

                                                       Walking alone in this long journey

Appreciation

There’s this place called earth whereby it’s a place that is full of love. Well, at least that is what most of the people thought. There are many kinds of love can be found anywhere.

Thus, there’s this 1 couple by the name of Milton & Jr. They were still very sweet after 6 months of being together.  Love spread in every corner  they went, as if the world belongs to only them. They both love each other so much. But as time goes by, seems like Milton has lose his love for Jr. But Jr didn’t mind at all, as long as they are still together.  As for Milton, he don’t spend much time with Jr anymore. Milton always use the reason “busy” with Jr.

After 3 years, things hasn’t  changed much.  Milton has been avoiding Jr more and more. Jr felt like he is not needed but he remains positive. Don’t want to let negativity take control over him. He always made plan so that he can meet up with Milton. But Milton didn’t showed up.  Instead, Milton went out with his friends. Milton prefers to hang out with his buddy.

One fine day, when Jr was on his way to go to work. Milton text him. When he took his phone out from his pocket, his phone slipped away and felt on the road. Jr turn to where his phone felt down and try to pick it up. Just when he tried to stand up, he got hit by a car. Jr died.

Only after the incident Milton realized that the way he treated  Jr was very suck. He felt sorry and regretted all his life. You see people, try to appreciate what you have right now, because what we have right now might lose one day. It can happen anytime.

Boring Strikes!!!!

boring face here~

nothing much to do now. let me think of a topic to share with you out there.. hmm~
GOT IT!! did i tell you that i'm on my practical now?? bet you don't know right? haha!! well now you know.

my host organization is Hyatt Regency Kinabalu. right now i'm in housekeeping department. i faced so much in housekeeping department. but all those hard work really worth it. i am now supervisor in training. how great is that? my manager says that she saw potential in me, so she gave me the chance to learn. i felt so lucky to have her as my boss who is willing to teach and share all her experience with me.

my next department is human resources. gosh!! what is that? do we like feed those people who need food outside there? lol! joking!! haha~ guess i will be office boy next!! desk job is so not my taste. but what to do.

well, guess there's no more to share with you guys, FOR NOW!! wait till i have something to share okay.

Will you...

sing with me?
dine with me?
laugh with me?
dance with me?
sleep with me?
stop a bullet for me?
jump off the cliff with me?
go crazy with me?
cry with me?
grow old with me?
count the stars with me?
fly with me?
wish upon a shooting star with me?
play in the rain with me?
hunt for rainbow with me?

just so you know, I am willing to do anything and everything for you. your wish is my command, as long as I shall life and still breathing; I will fulfill all of your wish. you can count on me. I promise you that I will stand by you faithfully.

Confused much??

Mm~ it's been very long time since i last updated my blog. lately, I've been having this problem with my boyfriend, it's not actually a real problem. it's just that we have some kind of error in communication.. some sort of disturbance. we have been acting very "cold" on each other. seems like no way to restore our "mood". why is this happening to us?

I have no time to think of all this, but it's bugging me all the time. voicing out will make this worse (i think). there are much for me to say to him, express everything to him. but I'm afraid that after i tell him everything about how i felt all this time will change his heart for me. that is something i don't wanna deal with.

my love for him is very strong. no matter what i will always be patience. let's just hope that all my dream that I've been keeping to myself will come true one day. i just want him to be happy with me, that I'm not some kind of big burden to him. no matter what happened, i will always fight for our love. but decision is all in his hand. if he decided to move on without me, then it's okay with me, as long as i know that he's happy with his own decisions.

guess my confusion will never end. i will always be in confusion state for the rest of my life. life's a mystery, no doubt that most people get lost in life. but those with strong heart will always be on top. ready to face for anything that's coming.

I don't like this v_v

i hate this...
huhuhu......
he's now on his practical...
so every night when he's on his way driving i'll call him...
he kept complaining that he's tired, of course he is...
so i'll tell him to take a bath a straight away go to bed as soon as he's at home...
it's like the same thing almost everyday, before he went to sleep he'll text me saying that he's on his bed and ready to sleep and wish me good night...
only after a few weeks after, he admitted to me that sometimes he's not sleeping at all.. in fact, he's watching TV...
Ok, i know this is just a small matter, no big deal...
but don't you see what's happening??
it clearly shows that he can fool me whenever he want without me knowing about it...
he TEXT me saying that he's sleeping, but the fact is he isn't sleeping...
he LIED to me and it kinda makes me look like a FOOL!!!! Idiotic!!!
I'm scared that he might be up to something or perhaps cheating on me??
OMG!!!! NO!!!!!!!!!
he kept saying sorry and he won't do it again.. but after saying sorry to me he still repeat the same mistake...
so now i don't care, he can do whatever he wants.. i'll just follow the flow...
if he says its A, then i'll obey him.. if its B, then B it is....
V_V.....